Despite having an enormous amount of work to do, fighting a very strong voice in my head telling me not to eat, and my usual litany of problems, I feel strong and confident. This is all because, for the first time in what must be forever, I started a debate in class. After a short, but I felt beneficial phone conversation with a friend, I marched forth and did not allow myself to fear my own voice. Let me put it this way, the novel The Road is not all it's cracked up to be and certainly was not worthy of the Pulitzer Prize. A discussion was then started on the most significant novels of the past 100 years, which I am supposed to write my own list of for next class. Excited about that.
So you know what? By proving that I won't fall on my face by speaking out, I just may not fear doing it so much in the future. Interestingly, I nearly literally fell on my face as I was leaving class by getting caught in the computer wires. My professor found this infinitely funny, but then he's a strange guy.
Love, Colette
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Wow Colette, that's great! I'm glad you found the courage to say what's on your mind, because many people never find it and will always be disappointed with the way things turn out. Starting a debate in class is always fun ;) I've started quite a few myself - despite my shyness in everyday life I'm rather outspoken in a classroom situation. Something about it feels really safe to me; maybe my love of academics?
You're right, once you realize you won't get shot down every time you speak up, it'll get much easier. And sorry about the tripping, but I think many professors have fun laughing at the students.
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I know, I was thinking to myself last night that if I hadn't talked, I would be terribly dissapointed. As it is, this was a much needed confidence boost that I believe will me help through finals!
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