I Detest the Fruity Floral...

and all that insist on being drenched in perfume in the midst of a not too well ventilated classroom. I also find it very inconsiderate, as I get massive headaches from most scents. Obviously it pisses me off quite a bit as I am still upset about it three days later. But really, what is the freaking point of wearing the wretched stuff? Despite the fact that experiences like that do not make me enamoured of the rest of the human race, I'm having some luck with being more social as of late. My Shakespeare class got into groups (each group will analyze a different play) and my group has some very nice, friendly people. I had wanted to get into the Richard II group, but I didn't, so I'm in Romeo & Juliet. I'm okay with that and I'm actually really looking forward to this project! Plus, I've talked to a few other cool people in other classes and I look forward to meeting them again.

My homework schedule is such that I think I must have been insane to pick the classes I did. I have ZERO free time. When I am not studying I am eating. Actually, that's not accurate because I study as I eat as well. So my updates may seem a bit erratic, but be assured that the reason is solely for the betterment of my brain. In fact my updates will most likely come at moments that I am procrastinating, which is exactly what I am doing now. I'm so tired of reading.

Love, Colette

Week One is Done

I'm exhausted, but in a nice, content way. I am so thankful not to have a Friday class again. That means I have a four-day weekend ahead of me to do the homework I have, as well as re-charge myself. I also really need to do some cleaning in my room; things are piling up and driving me nuts. My brother just did his once a year cleaning of his room, I swear the dust was about two inches thick. How he can live that way is beyond me. He doesn't even sneeze because of it. The very thought of how unclean his room gets makes me want to polish mine into a glittering gem of cleanliness.

I had started to let my calories drift downwards again, so I am trying to make sure to eat more. I got really upset about having to even bother with all of this yesterday morning when my dad took my lunch without my knowledge. I went to pack it and it was just gone. I started to cry on the kitchen floor, and felt very alone because my dad had left for work and everybody else was asleep. I wish it weren't so hard to just get something else to eat, instead of feeling I need to only eat whatever it is I planned on. I wish a lot of things though. Life is life, I am what I am. What I am is not going to change overnight just because I wish it would. Oh well, I talked it over with my dad and he was sincerely sorry and promised not to do it again, at least not without asking me first. So that should not be an issue again.

Hope everyone is well!

Love, Colette

Tomatoes, Luna Bars, and School

The weather was so odd and spring-like today, nice and sunny and mild. Perfect for my first day back to college. The weather is so nice in fact that my mom and I started to plan out our summer veggie garden, which I am ridiculously excited to announce will include heirloom tomatoes! I experimented with these little beauties last summer while trying to get lots of good stuff into my diet to help me regain my health. I loved them so much I insisted that I be able to grow them, partly because a packet of seeds costs less than a couple of them at the grocery store, partly because I am rather enchanted with the idea of growing as much of my own food as I can. We'll be growing lots of other yummy stuff as well, and taking precautions to protect them from the hordes of raccoons that like to take off with our veggies. If you have the idea that raccoons are cute, cuddly, and innocent, throw that idea away. They are mean little bastards with cunning minds. They even rolled the container with my cats' food out of the garage and down to their den once. But I know that somehow I will outsmart them and enjoy the fruits of my labor.

Speaking of enjoyment, I love me some Luna bars, another wonderful food that has helped me in my fight to regain my health. To be honest, my favorite Christmas gift may well have been the stack of Luna bars that half-filled my stocking. So when I came across a new flavor at Whole Foods I was very, very happy. White Chocolate Macadamia is what it is called, and even though I thought it tasted great, I didn't taste much of any those flavors. If anybody runs across it though it's definitely worth a try.

I went back to college today, and despite all my anxieties, it went really well. My Shakespeare class is really great. My professor is actually from England, near Stratford as a matter of fact. I don't even mind the fact that because my Shakespeare anthology weighs about 10 pounds my back is currently killing me. My other classes were pretty cool too. My Earth Science is in the planetarium, which is an unusual experience. It's very round. So things went well, I'm excited, and I'm happy. I really couldn't ask for much more.

Love, Colette

I'm Back

After a brief hiatus, which nobody probably even noticed, I am back online. Some screwy stuff was happening with my computer. My brother tried to fix it, but being that he is somewhat inept with computers, he made things far worse. Anyways, it is fixed and I am catching up on a lot of stuff online.

I go back to college on Monday and I feel like I am totally unprepared. I have no books yet and won't for another week at least. I am also worried about taking a full load this semester, because last one I did not. Even though I am looking forward to my classes, esp. my coveted Shakespeare class and Women's History, I worry that I will not be able to handle them and get the grades that I want. So, I am very much on edge. I will update on myself as much as I can this next week, but I expect things to be hectic. If it seems like I have dropped off the face of the earth, just know I haven't.

Love, Colette